IT IS A STATEMENT, NOT ONLY A CHEESY ROMANCE

it's only a nickname, they said.
it's not a big problem, they said.

NOT FOR ME. NOTED THAT.

let me ask you a question. do you know the special feeling when you do something that only you and him can understand? have you ever felt so special when you both laughing together but no one has any idea about what you laugh at? have you ever feel "the one and only girl that he loves" when he calls you candy and you do the same way while no one has ever called you this way? or his way of whispering to you in a crowd of your friends and you laugh together then. those moments are specials. well, for me, it's not only a moment that will pass by. it is a statement. it represents a statement that you and him have a special relation. you don't need to say "HELLO EVERYONE! THIS IS MY BOYFRIEND! WOOOHOOO!" no. no, my friend. we nowadays do it in more elegance way. and that way is like what i have been described above.

now, question number 2. what if all of those acts are not only for you, but he did it to all the girls in class? or what if suddenly he allow all of his friends to do all of them to him? what if all of his friends could called him with that special nickname you gave to him? what are you gonna feel, huh? once again, it's not the matter of you want those cheesy words or you want some romantic acts. it is the statement. where does the statement go? yes, it's gone. because it's not special again. it is used by everyone. it is done by everyone.

you know my love,
you are not mine, i ain't either. those are the only thing i can feel like i'm the one for you and you are the one for me. that i am that special girl. that i "own" you. when it's all gone, what am i supposed to feel? what am i supposed to do?

oh sweet Barney

so guys, this is Barney begging for a forgiveness from Robin because she caught him still keeping his Playbook

i love how he does it! oh sweet Barney...

note to myself and you.

the hardest part when you face a failure is to keep moving on and forget the pain. i usually can think of other wonderful things after i failed, so that i never get drown into deep sadness and regret what i had done. and i have friends who always encourage me whatever happens. i only said friends, because it's not a lot. true friends are limited.

one more thing you can do is to think that there are lots people who is less fortunate than yourself, that those people out there have more complicated problems than you have. that's what my friend said, actually. well, i know it's not easy to do. but at least, you can try. try to keep move on, your capability is bigger than you think, it's just you haven't use it very well. or maybe you have hidden potentials. don't be afraid to do new things. the point is, try to move on.

i give you a little secret, doing new things is so fun! really, i'm not lying. no no, don't think too big such "i failed in organization, i'll try music" not that big. try to do little things that new such as "i'll read at least 2 books this month" or "i'll take dance class this month" or "i'll write a blog" or "i'll give a penny to some beggar" or anything. you can try anything that new to you. that's how you met your mother discover your hidden potentials. and that's the way you seek your passion, said Rene Suhardono.

it always working for me.

i hope it's working for you too.