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Hey, what's up?

Anyway, I've been thinking for days about relationship between me and my friend. Yes,he's a boy. We've been so much closer for 3 months lately. I enjoy every second of it. I love how the way he takes care about me. He even knows that I don't eat my supper yet before I told him! We frequently chat, like almost everyday. The conversation takes hours till I lay on my bed. We do very well interaction. I guess, he enjoys what we've been through as well. 

FYI, he's my extracurricular mate. We are in a same base, SGG (I've told you about it in my older post). It's the place where all the story began. Well, I actually knew him since I entered SMADA. He's one of my eye catcher. Everybody admit that he has a good looking, almost perfect, yes, literally. My buddy and I started adoring him since 10th grade, but It was just an adore, no more than that. I like seeing him around. 

One day, he joined SGG when we were on 11th grade. It was a bit shocking yet I'm uber happy thus I wouldn't have to make so much effort just for seeing his wonderful smile. As the days go by, we do a lot of things together and getting know each other deeper. I was like seeing something different in his eyes when he looked at me. I have no idea what was that but I felt warm. Every time I spend with him, I grow so much more happiness inside that I go home with a big smile. It's not only those warm eyes I love, but also the conversations we made. I know it's way less 'wow' than the conversations I made with my ex-crush but there's something different I can't describe. He gives a new atmosphere and makes it interesting with his own way. Moreover, he does many little things that nobody can do. Yes, he grabbed my heart :)

However, sadly I'd say that he doesn't tell anything about his feeling to me yet. I don't know why. Some of my friends said that he hesitates to take a risk. He ever failed on a relationship he made and it hurt him so bad. On the other hand, the rest of them said that he's just fooling around. I asked for advices to my buddies and got some different answers. One side told me to leave him while the other side told me to wait and stay as long as I can.

After a looong brain-storming,I decided that I'll just enjoy the circumstance. As long as I'm happy and got what I need, It's fine.But one thing for sure,I shouldn't let my heart takes too much part on it as one of my best buddy said 

"...jalanin aja seneng-seneng bareng, tp kalo dia blm kasih kepastian,jangan masukin ke ati. Apapun itu..."

:)